Sorry to anyone who reads this blog, I've been lazy the past few days, as is expected. Here are a few pictures I've taken over the past couple days!




Christmas was awesome. Mady got spoiled, as usual (Thank you aunts, uncles, grandparents, great-grandparents ect.)

Jason bought me Wii fit. Totally awesome. I plan on losing a good 20 lbs before the summer. I should take before and after pic's like they do on the biggest loser.


As some of you notice, i uploaded a playlist. This playlist is from when I was 18. Awesome. I miss those times.

Christmas Eve Eve

Firstly, I'd like to congratulate my daughter for eating yogurt and ENJOYING it for the first time this morning! Go Mady! My little healthy eater. (yeah, OK).

The day continued on, and I picked up my 13 year old sister Erin from school. She had a half day.

We went back to my mom's house, Mady, Erin, I and Mady's three bags of everything. Yeah, I like to over-pack.

After Mady's tummy was full and her diaper was clean I put her down for a nap. Erin and I decided to play Wii fit. That horribly, evil, Wii fit.
For the second time in a row, that damn game told me I was over-weight. Well -- I showed THAT Wii fit by exercising for an hour, doing a combination of yoga, running, and strength training. I'm not quite sure how many calories I burned, but I'm pretty sure I gained them all back after dinner. Yum.

Any who. When I arrived home, from a long exhausting day of showing Wii fit who's boss, I discovered my lovely fiance, and 5 lovely new gifts wrapped and placed under the tree.



Now, let me tell you. I really, really don't like surprised. I leaned over the couch and stared, stared...



I'm trying to figure it out, and I'm really trying not to think about it, (maybe). I just can't wait to open those darn presents!

I trust Jason, and his taste in everything awesome. (After all, he did get me the most beautiful engagement ring last Christmas).

Anyway -- I'm watching Man vs. Wild and I suck at multi-tasking. Till next time ...

<3M

Apple Juice and Carrot Wheels

I feel that I've been getting better lately. I feel like I'm getting into the groove more and more as the days go on. I'm being vague for a reason, so don't look into that statement too much!

My wonderful fiance wants to buy us a new couch! Of course, me being weary about our financial situation ( typical ) wasn't sure at first. I want to concentrate on moving on from this place to the next. hopefully a place I can call home! I'm aching to decorate. Paint walls. Hang pictures. Give Mady her own room and decorate that as well! Oh! What fun :)

I have this typical, perfect family fantasy. With 4 perfect little children, all of which I raise with the goodness and love of the Lord in their hearts. With a perfect hubby, who works hard all day to support the life we so desperately want. And when he comes home, he still has a smile on his face and is ready to tackle whatever projects are waiting for him at home.

I want to be the wife that dresses cute for her husband, cooks organic and healthy meals daily, cleans and does the wash, and after the baby goes to bed, spends a few hours alone with that man she so desperately wants to marry.

you might be confused.

I'm going in and out of fantasy and reality in this post.

the reality is...

my life isn't perfect.

i do have an amazing fiance who goes to work everyday to support the life we live.

I have one, wonderfully beautiful daughter I love with everything in me and more.

I want to have more babies ... 3 more.

I need a cute wardrobe so I can look presentable for my cute fiance because I don't fit into half the things I own so I normally cave into the sweatpants/t-shirt trend that is popular with mom's all over the world.

I need to get a cookbook that caters to my desire to cook healthy and organic. Because I don't cook organic or healthy at the moment.


I have a lot to work on.


I'm taking it one day at a time though. Things get better and then they get worse, but I am very positive at the moment that things are looking up this time.


I love you all --


<3m

Empty Milk Cartons

After Mady's lunch, I take her out of her high chair and let her stretch her legs while I warm up some milk.

Every time, she goes to the kitchen for empty cartons of milk and/or orange juice, and sometimes even bottles of coke. She grabs one in each hand and runs up and down the hallway and all through the house, as shown on the left.

I love this, I think it's hilarious. She enjoys it so much, I can't help but to smile every time I see her go into the kitchen and reach for the empty cartons...

this is Mady at 7am in the morning.

Actually she woke up at 6am. I didn't mind though. I feel so horrible, Madelyn is sick! I've been putting saline drops in her nose and sucking it back out with that weird bulb thing. I've been pumping Tylenol in her as often as the label says I can ... she was running a low grade fever.

Since she's sick, I don't want to be giving her milk, so I gave her some apple juice in a sippy cup and she still has yet to drink it! ... I might call the doctor.

Being sick is such an awful thing, especially when they're so young and there's just so much you can do! It always happens around the holiday's too!

Snowfall

Madelyn looking out at the first morning snow

Today was the first snowfall of (almost) winter! I woke up to a white blanket outside. It was magnificent. I really started to regret not buying Madelyn a snowsuit today. If she had one, I would have taken her outside first thing!

I spent most of the day with Mady just hanging out. I wish i would have done more today, actually. But, it is 7:30pm and the Christmas Tree is decorate, Clothes are folded and put away and the kitchen is spotless. I have the first and third to thank Jason for, if he hadn't helped I think I would have let stress get the best of me.

Christmas is on Friday, I can't believe it! Mady doesn't really understand what's going on this year, I don't think anymore then she did last year, but it's still fun nonetheless!

I bought "The Night Before Christmas" for her. My Dad, my sister's and I had this running tradition where every Christmas Eve before bed, my sister's and I would all cozy up around my Dad as he read to us. It is such a cherished memory of mine, and one I would like to carry on with my own daughter.

I love being a 20something stay-at-home mom. At time's I wish I had some form of income, no matter how small the cost, and I know I'll get there eventually. It's hard leaving Mady. I don't know what I'm afraid of, I know she'll be happy and safe when I return. It's just another emotional obstacle to overcome.

Till next time...

<3M

mommy blogger on the loose

So this is the first entry, of my new blog! I feel a need to start over, fresh. I want a change, something different.

And no, i'm not just talking about this blog. I'm talking about my life. My life as a mommy. And as a soon-to-be wife.

How many girls my age are really a stay-at-home mom, raising a one year old, and taking care of a man?

It's different, and fun. I really enjoy it.

So this is my mommy blog. Welcome. To. My. Life.

<3M