Apple Juice and Carrot Wheels

I feel that I've been getting better lately. I feel like I'm getting into the groove more and more as the days go on. I'm being vague for a reason, so don't look into that statement too much!

My wonderful fiance wants to buy us a new couch! Of course, me being weary about our financial situation ( typical ) wasn't sure at first. I want to concentrate on moving on from this place to the next. hopefully a place I can call home! I'm aching to decorate. Paint walls. Hang pictures. Give Mady her own room and decorate that as well! Oh! What fun :)

I have this typical, perfect family fantasy. With 4 perfect little children, all of which I raise with the goodness and love of the Lord in their hearts. With a perfect hubby, who works hard all day to support the life we so desperately want. And when he comes home, he still has a smile on his face and is ready to tackle whatever projects are waiting for him at home.

I want to be the wife that dresses cute for her husband, cooks organic and healthy meals daily, cleans and does the wash, and after the baby goes to bed, spends a few hours alone with that man she so desperately wants to marry.

you might be confused.

I'm going in and out of fantasy and reality in this post.

the reality is...

my life isn't perfect.

i do have an amazing fiance who goes to work everyday to support the life we live.

I have one, wonderfully beautiful daughter I love with everything in me and more.

I want to have more babies ... 3 more.

I need a cute wardrobe so I can look presentable for my cute fiance because I don't fit into half the things I own so I normally cave into the sweatpants/t-shirt trend that is popular with mom's all over the world.

I need to get a cookbook that caters to my desire to cook healthy and organic. Because I don't cook organic or healthy at the moment.


I have a lot to work on.


I'm taking it one day at a time though. Things get better and then they get worse, but I am very positive at the moment that things are looking up this time.


I love you all --


<3m